Off the Wagon

So I've completely slacked on blogging. My apologies.  Getting ready for Thanksgiving kinda got in the way.  The week before the holiday I was so good! I took my exercise up a notch and started doing kickboxing (thank you OnDemand exercise channel).  After 5 minutes I was sweating and by 20 I was exhausted and wanted to yell at the crazy instructor lady who wanted me to give her 8 more jumping jacks, but didn't have the energy.  Thanksgiving week I was busy grocery shopping, baking and packing and exercise fell off the radar.  I stuffed myself with carbs and (nondairy) butter and apple pie.  When it was time to go back to work my pants were just a wee bit snug and I was a little upset with myself, but it's the holidays people! You're supposed to indulge!  There is already a list a mile long of foods I can't have thanks to my milk allergy.  I'm not about to make that list longer and deprive myself even more.  I had a doctors appointment today and was dreading getting on the scale.  I used to ask the nurses to not tell me my weight, but they always did (bitches) so I stopped asking and just look off to the side and ignore the numbers that keep going up.  This time I was pleasantly surprised...and a little confused.  I've lost 3 pounds! How the hell did that happen?!  I didn't exercise for a week and went off the rails with high calorie, high carb, fattening foods!  Could it be that my metabolism is finally getting, just a little, back on track? It takes some time for your body to adjust to a change in medication dosage and maybe decreasing the paxil from 30mg to 15mg is a contributing factor.I stopped taking the lexapro. I know you're supposed to give it a few weeks to work out all the kinks, but I hated the way it was making me feel.  I couldn't concentrate to save my damn life and this has never happened to me before. I am an extremely focused person and all of a sudden I was forgetting things, getting confused easily and it was affecting my work performance.  The day after I stopped taking it my brain snapped back into place.  I don't know if the lexapro has anything to do with the weight-loss. I wasn't on it for more than a week so I doubt it helped which gives me hope that you can lose weight while on paxil!!  I've read on so many forums that no matter what people do they can't lose weight while on paxil.  Well maybe you can.  I do think that your dose completely affects how much weight you gain.  For me, the higher the dosage, the more weight I gain.  I'm going to keep exercising, stay away from the lexapro and keep eating healthily (at least until Christmas) and see if the weight loss continues...